resignation letter

Official transcripts came in rather quickly.
Nothing on background check yet.
I got an email today from Soon (guy from gmsc agency) informing me of a job position available. From what I know, it's in a city a little north of Seoul. I really don't know Korea that well so be picky about which city, but I do want to stay a little south of Seoul instead of north. I don't know why.
After a whole lot of debating and taking lots of people's advice & opinion into consideration, I've decided to try to get a public school position. We'll see though. I also have to look at the travel distance (from apartment to school) and the pay. The pay for public schools is pretty standard though I think.

I go through the days just the same. I don't think I realize how much of a drastic change I'm going to go through in the next month or so. It hasn't really sunk in all the way yet. Maybe it won't until I get there. I don't want to be excited because there's a chance I might be disappointed when I get there. So I'm just trying to go with the flow. I think I adjust quite well to the things and people around me. That's just what I think though. My friends might disagree.

Now, I'm totally dreading the day I have to give my resignation letter to my boss. I have to constantly remind myself of all the reasons why I am doing this. Sometimes, I feel like I should just play it safe and stay working there.........forever.. or until I can get into nursing school (which I'm not even sure about anymore). I have to think about how I'm working as an Asst Mgr at a retail store with a Bachelors degree. I mean, in the high-end stores the Asst Mgrs make a lot, but at my store..I make only enough to cover my bills. That's it. I get to save nothing. I'm not in search of a wonderful job making tons of money. I'd just like to make enough to pay my bills that I accumulated during my college years AND not to mention my college debt.. and have a little bit to save so I can help my family & friends. I've been nothing but a burden to them. It's hard when you want to help but you can't. Anyway, back to my job....... I like the people I work with...most of the time. Once in a while there's drama but there will be drama no matter where you go.. so I deal with it. However, being the one in charge of making the schedules, I think I get the most crap from people. What I've learned is that people will complain no matter what. They will tell you they want this and you do it for them, but it'll never be good enough because they will always want something more. So instead of trying to please everyone, I just do what needs to be done. A lot of the things I've learned there will definitely help in my teaching in Korea. For example, when I was a sales there I always dreamed of how I'd be if I was to ever become the boss. Well, I never got to be the big boss but the assistant boss counts. Anyhow, I wanted to be the "coolest" asst mgr anyone could ever have...so I joked around with everyone.. tried to be everyone's friend. I wanted to just be equal you know? I guess it wasn't that cool of an idea because after a while, nobody really cared about what I had to say. No one took me seriously. Long story, but now I just go to work, do my job, and come home. I try not to get too close to anyone there. I try not to joke around too much. I work harder around "lazier" people to try to show them how they should be working. My boss is very nice, too nice sometimes so people take advantage of it. I will miss her. I know things will never be the same again once I put my 2 weeks in, but I'm sure there are better things waiting for me in this life. I cannot stay there forever. I cannot.

Yep, this is pretty much what goes through my head everyday.
Hopefully by my next entry, I will have gotten my background check and some other things in order.
:)