goodbye?

I asked my cousin's wife (she's a RN) to write a recommendation letter for me. She brought it over earlier along with a little gift. At first I didn't understand what it was for and then she explained to me that it was a goodbye gift...caught me by surprise. I teared up reading the card...and the letter of recommendation.

I hate saying goodbyes right now.. only because it's hard to tell people when I'm leaving exactly. And I'm afraid that if my paperwork don't go through... I'd still be here and then...it would be weird you know?
Say goodbye but end up not going. that's weird to me.

I've never had anyone write recommendation letters for me before. I should take a picture of these for memories :) I needed 2 so my Speech professor wrote one for me also. I was a total nerd in that class..even though I was deathly afraid of it at first.

Alright. I have tons of things to do, but I'm just spending my days hanging out with my family..and in front of my laptop.

I'm totally dreading Friday... putting my resignation letter in. My heart feels like it's going to stop every time I think about it.

I need to keep believing that this is what the Lord has planned for me.