Ready or not

2 weeks to make a decision went down to 1 day.
I was told yesterday that they'd like to know by today what my decision will be.
I quickly called my mom during my lunch break yesterday and gave her the news.
I'm sure she knew it was coming.
Got more emotional than I thought.
Take away the bills that I still need to pay off, then I'd be the happiest girl alive. because it would mean I can go home.. and not worry about not having a job to pay ..of course the monthly bills.
However, it would make life too easy right? taking bills away. It's like taking pain away from the world. Of course it would be easier to live without pain.. or without bills. But there would be no excitement. no hard decision-making. no traveling to the other side of the world to pay off bills. no adventure. the world could get pretty boring.
So, I made the decision to stay.
Talking to Sheng on skype last night made me realize that I knew I would be staying another year. I just couldn't admit to it. and I still can't. because honestly, I really want to go home. spend some time with my baby. and not seeing my family for another year. really? Can I really do that?
Can or.. cannot. I will have to. now.
I told them today that I will re-sign.
Here's to another year in Korea and to saving money (so I don't have to stay a third year).
FIGHTING!!
Oh and the first snow fall came today. It was light. and pretty. but it's freezing cold.